The first symptoms started to show when I was still in high school. My parents never believed in psychological help, they always said that “all this medical stuff is for the real patients, who are bed-bound and act like vegetables and I should just stop being lazy”. So I learned how to adapt and find my own ways to stay above water.

After graduating high school, I had to go to university, and reach higher levels of education like a normal, well-behaved kid would. Only, I started to realize that I was not that “normal” and went to the academy of arts. I mean, if I HAVE to go let’s make it as least miserable as possible.

During my third year of studies, I really wanted not to be alive anymore. Since it’s not an option, I started to dream about it in an artistic way. What if I did a performance of my own funeral?

And that idea fascinated me a bit more than it should. In my head, I had planned everything, all the flowers, decorations, the dress, guest list, just like some wedding! The point of this performance would have been a message, that it’s too much. Everything is too much. The lack of sleep, stress, etc. I never wanted to study or live this “normal” life like everyone else, I wanted to find some joy in life, and cure my mind before going further, but I never had a choice. So this fake funeral was my way of saying that I had enough. I never made it happen. Until, some years later, I met my true partner in life. More info: Instagram

There it is in all its glory

Share icon This idea of a coffin came back to me as a huge slap in the face when I saw other photographers building these things one after another as cute and sexy decorations for their Halloween boudoir photo shoots. My eyes popped as I remembered my old little performance that never happened. Now I finally have all the tools, skills, place, AND help to actually bring it to reality. And we did. Joyfully!

Ready for the photoshoots

Share icon I had so much fun making this thing. We did everything by ourselves, all the woodwork, metal details, and burning to achieve this old historic vibe and painting. I couldn’t be more proud.

Both of us built it from scratch

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Proudly 100% handmade! Few finishing touches and it’s ready to be painted

Share icon Now it stands in my gothic photo studio where all my guests and clients can see it any day they like. I use it for the photo shoots of my clients, for the Halloween of course, I plan to take it to the events as a portable photo wall.

Painting is my favorite part!

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Painting and realizing it looks more like a boat than a coffin… Does anyone have two silver coins?

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All done, transported and decorated. Ready to be used as a decoration, star of all parties, conversation ice-breaker and what ever my imagination comes up with

Share icon What about the performance? It has changed its form into a photo shoot. Since I’m not in the academy anymore, I don’t have this artistic background AND the audience that it was created for. But I still think about making a photo shoot for myself as a memory or a statement. But I will talk more about it in the next article. Anyone can write on Bored Panda. Start writing! Follow Bored Panda on Google News! Follow us on Flipboard.com/@boredpanda!

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